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2004-09-05T23:11:00.000+08:00

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2004-09-04T14:13:00.000+08:00

yeahh...i am back here blogging agains lo.....hehes..quite alot of things happened over da week..i broke up wid him on 270804...yea..u all can sae i am bitch or wad..but anyway u dunno wad happen soo just shuddup alrite..31 aug met lucas..haiss..miss him lots lots..=\..i noe wad i am suppose to do..forget him ma..i'll try thenss..=\..then yesterdae..had a course on project mangaement..frm 2.30 to 6.30...gagas...a boring cum` interestin wan..the coach is real joker la..althoug hall his jokes so cold wan..hahas..then half way..i miss sumone..heez..so send him a msg..heez..then he replied..sumthing..geezz..i was smilin at myself while reading da msg..hhezzz..i hab a crush on him?although he's not a chinese..yeahh..hehes..he's a nice guy..*bleahhs*..then msg and msg till 7 plus liddat he told me we'll tok on msn later..so wel..i ate my dinner and chatted wid him on msn fer 1hr plus..gees..was happi to see him online..annd ya..i wun forget the promise he made..he'll smoke lesser which means oni 2 sticks per dae..u can do it..trust me okies..*smiles*..he's a veh cheeky guy though..dunno wads on his mind..hahas...and yea..he like chi gals?heeess...hmmm...wel..but i think its impossible fer me and him de norhss..heess..but sumtimes miracles do happen in life de woorsss..heezz...and yea..lastly..rona gor gor booked out leeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!heeesss..he called me while i'm n course..hahas...bleahs..was shokced?!..heess..k larhs end here..hmm..yea..i mish him loads!!!..=P

2004-08-25T20:23:00.000+08:00

hey guys..sorry fer not updating mie blog for such a long time okies...*forgive me*..alrties..quite alots of things happen lately..and little tiff wid my dear lately..*sadded*..i mean over samll matters..arghh wad tha hell ish happening!!...nvm...well didnt felt good on mondae nite .. sumthing terrible reeli happen..=\.....at around midnight 3 am..sumoen touched me..his/her hands were rather cold...real chill...and i was shock..of cuz common sense tells me to open my eyes...*curiosuity kills the cat in da bag*...and i loked around me..there wasnt anyone...=\...fook...nvm..i am reeli sccarced now alrite...=(..did quite alot of stuffs todae and yesterdae..hah..yesterdae nite was bz doin the stupid IPW project..well its all about herbs and spices...hahas..lamey topic la..k lar...me and my dear tml one month le...liek so fast nehs..hehe..lurbe him lots lots..sorry that i've made u angry..i promise i'll change..=)...zi de ohh..mayeh lube u lots lots de wors...*muacks*..hope u also can control ur temper wors...=p....260704...

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2004-08-16T20:53:00.000+08:00

wahahahha..once in a life time i gave sumone 48 missed call...powerr ahh...*wahhahas*...k larhs..ahbe nbeen blogging fer quite a period of tyme..went to chalet on staurdae..hab sum fun?wahahas...all lame ppl...haha..k la..lazy to blog liaos..and yea...RAJOO sucks..wahahahhs...

2004-08-10T20:53:00.000+08:00

alryte...back here to do sum bloggin agains..hmm..last fri was national day celebration..everyone was wearin da hang ten red shirt?*er*..hahas..abit wierd though..then in class we took lots of fotos coz i brought my digi camm mmaaa...*hahas*...and there was like so many wierd pose?hahas..okasy..after that went to meet my dear at opp..but before that we was detained in class bcoz sumone frm 3n2 hp was lost and the blame was dragged to our clas...its so ridiculous!...wahahhas..and yea..dear waited me fer an hour..*so sorri*..then sundae went to malaysia fer a weddin dinner..i wass wearing high heels shoes..hahas...apparently i was so comfortable bcoz i'm wearing it fer da first time!..and obviously i had walking porblems..hahas..but never mind..we ate alot of things but wad i adoress da most was the hyatt cafe de *brownie*...wahhaas..its simply so delicious!!..*hhhmmmmm*..then at nites around 10.30 we were thinking to get out of malaysia but theres was a bigggggg biggggggg traffic jam and its gonna last for more or least 3hr or so..so yea..my uncle decided to go to a nearby coffee shop to take a break and drive into the another way of the passage and b da last car for da dae..haha..appraently we made it and we was the last car..hah!..if we were late for a sec..we'll stuck in malaysia then..*lalalalala*..and yea mondae stayed home till 4 plus went to bugis wid my beloved bro and went home aorund at 7...*bored*..and yea..todae here i'm blogging agins..one shot blogging for 4 daes isnt that kwel huhhh...*blahh*...went out wid my dear todae..he came to my house viod deck and waited fer me..apprently i was late la..actually i was already ready 15 mins ago le..but thinking that he will b late..so i happily sat infront of my computer and surf da net..hahas..and yea i just realise my fone wasnt wid me..so went to take my fone i had one missed call and 2 msg recieve all frm him..haha..i was like..ohoh!!..hahas..so rushed out of da house and went to meet him..then headed to orcahrd shortly..in da first place was suppose to met yvone nicole jun wei and jun jie de..end up met up wid jun wei , jun jie ,xiaohui and winnie..hahas..suprised yea..and ya my dear was so damn blardy lame la...hahas..bth him..make me luff thorughout da dae lor..bad bad..=PpPP..then after that went bugis..then dear and jj bought one t-shirt...and dear bought another bag..anyway first time i see boys go fer shopping..hahahahaha...*o0ps*..=PpPp..k larhs..end here le..wrote kinda long liaos..and yea those who managed to read finsih this post..thank you..hahas..coz u had such patience of reading my long long lamey post..hahas...and yea tml there's sch..bored..=\..

_____[` mayeh........... ]

2004-08-05T19:34:00.000+08:00

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....i am back here to blog agains!!!.hahas..i also foregt wad happen lately ler..hahas...just wanna sae i love my dear lots lots...and yea..jason got dear le..hahas...zhu fu ni men tian chang di jiu okies..*happi always*..*mayeh lurbe javier always*...muacks..26.07.04...never.be.replaced...and yea..i miss ron kor kor so much..=

2004-08-01T11:59:00.000+08:00

weelll...ddint blog for quite a long time yeeaahhh....was kidna busy lorr..alwasy goin outs..tired..hahas..yeaa...went madicure yesterdae..did my nails..not bad de...but hor..i bu xiao xin make..then the white de not nice le..but nvm..at least i did my nails..hehehehe..then dear came to find me le..btw was wid my cussie ahh...then went to orcahrd lor...they went there to smoke then find my ganm kor kor [ ron ]..bleahhsss..ahhhh miss him so much nehh...anyway hes goin NS soon le..sadded..then went to bangkit at CCk there..to my cuzzie huouse lor..sang KTV..muahahah..then 2 daes ago which was fridae went to bugis to watched *house of flying daggers*...ok la..gotta admit its a stupid show lor...dun go watch it ah..todae sundae le..so fast de..me and him one week le...time reeli flies..love him lots..dun wish to see any ending..and yea..yvon and xiao`dan break le..then yesterdae saw him near my hosue he so dao de..i asked him wad happen to u and von..then he sae nth then look away then i sae..aiya dun tok to u ..tok to u so dao wan..then walked away..anyway he reeli sucks..his attiude like shit..u dun gib me a damn i wun gib u a damn too kays..u wanna gib u farking attitude..i gib u back my farking attitude..u simply just sucks..not gentleman wan..eeeeeee......

2004-07-27T21:29:00.000+08:00

gees..i am tired..reeli sleepy now...ZzZz..*Snoresss*...went to meet my dear dear after sch..well it rain..yes its raining..making me so smeellllyyyy!!!!!!!.*eeiks*..the smell reeli freak me out okays.i mean it..then was suppose to ctach a movie wid my dear de..but in da end..was pulled to yvonne house by her..*gagas*..at first didnt dare to call my dear de..c0z scarced he angry ma..already arrange properly wanna go watch movie le..but in the end i still call ahh...=PpP..and yea..he said ok..so went to the coffeeshop wid jenny and my baobei..then went to tm de mac..seat there waiting for..my dear..mingyang and erm..i durno who..hahas..yea..junjie..then went to yvonne house..yea..and its AGIAN..hahas..but nvm..i can sleep htere and i can watch tv there hahahahahahaah...i am NUTS leee laaa...then watch dark water..although its reeli OUTDATED..but its scary laaa..hahas..then ate sum hotdogs and ate sum fried rice bought by jenny lorhs..then wents home lorhs.. around 5 ..contiune lata..hehehe

2004-07-26T21:51:00.000+08:00

*wEEeeeeeeeeeeee*..backs to blogging here..its so boring..and yea..yesterdae was a tiring daee uuhhsss..went to orchard..ctach king arthur..and took loads of fotos..gagagas..lots of stupid looks..hahas..but sum fotos are simply too nice!..hahas..guys and galss..dunch b jealous okies..*=pPppPpp*..alrytes..tjhen went to bugis to find my brothers..and yea did i mention i was out wid my cuzzies?hahas...adn yea..went to bugis to look at the sex shop?hahas...arghh...i wana a tatto!..is so kwel !!..but wasnt allow to make one..arghh..i wan at the back of mineeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!nvm..thens went to took fotos agaisn..hahas..sounds er??hahas...hmm..then went home lor..the nsat i slept at 3am..isnt that great uhh...hahas..was sleepy la...hmm..then todae meet him norhs..wun sae out his name..*hehe*..then went to sumone hosue..slack till 5 ..went home..and yea..here online agains lorrr..boring dae..and yea. ms rini is living..kinda saddenin lorr...hais..she gone..no more big big de eyes..small lil size de teacher e..hahas..=PpP..and yea she fanire..she mess up my hair cuz i was drawing cartoons during art..=Pp>.hehehehe....i accept him le...bleahhhsss...love him lots lots..reeli cherish him alot alotss...h0pe there's nmo ending to it....*loving.u.now.and.its.gonna.be.forever.*..and yea..all my hope all my trsut i've put in u..hope u wun betray it..,okies..=)..*muckss*..love you always okies..*Smiles*

2004-07-24T11:00:00.000+08:00

*gagagas*..first time..i s0o0o0o0 earlie cum blogg ler...gagagas..*nUtS*..gagagas..didnt actually i can ferget him so easily..i wanna start a brand new love life of mine..i dunch wanna get stuck in dere anymore..just wanna gib myself a new chance to b alive agains..c0z i dunch wanna be dead?...hehehes..anyway..javier is a nice guy..*grins*..

2004-07-23T17:26:00.000+08:00

"Everytime by britney spears "

Notice me
Take my hand
Why are weStrangers
whenOur love is strong
Why carry on without me?
Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby
I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy
And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby
I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry
Ohhhh
At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away
And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby

(g0sh..this s0ng ish puurrfectt..reeli it is..*

2004-07-23T16:17:00.000+08:00

hais..t0dae ish fridae..shuld b looking forward for the weekends..but i'm not..i rather contiune studying non-stop..it then can reeli stop me frm thinking things that i shuldnt..its reeli frustrating..*argh`!*..now..todae..finally i noe the reason why..its bcoz..argh`!..not gonna mention it..`*w0 men de ai guo le jiu bu zhai hui lai..*..it reeli hurts when u sae i am one of the..*ahems*..just like a arrow [ piercing through my hart ]..when u said it..was trying to control my tears from falling but wad can i do?instead called yvoone vent all my anger on her...*sprry baobei*..hais...i dunch noe why thinsg will turn out like this..if its mean to b liddat..i guess..i cant do much..things i need to do..i hab already done it..wad else do u expect me to do??and yea...i n0e the reason why he saes me that..i noe it very well..sadded

2004-07-22T19:05:00.000+08:00

gees..i am back to blogg agains le worrrrrrr..hapi or nots..=X..k lar..yesterdae wsnt a great dae fer me..was reeli pissed off by him agains..hais..when will he understand mie??sadded wan..but he suan got liang xin lor..called me 10 times?hahas..but i dint ans coz told u le..was damn pissed off..*sighs*..love sucks..it reeli sucks to be maglin by others..hais..well..sorry for my attitude..i didnt mean it...reeli sorry..h0pe u get wad i mean..i'm waiting..*grins*..

2004-07-21T18:35:00.000+08:00

well..well.. well..mayeh ish backs here to blog agains ler..*hehes*..topdae nth much happen..yea..not forgetting todae ish racial harmony dae!!..ahas..quite alot of free periods todae lorhs..coz the daniel low neber cum..*so shiok lehs*..thn nv reeli go anywher then went home le..i wanna watch sister tml lei..who wan pei me go watch??

2004-07-20T11:33:00.000+08:00

*gees*..i am back here to blog...quite alorts of things happen..was sick yesterdae nite..ferverish and vomitting..*sobbys*..in da aftanoon..went to yvonne house..wid..erms..- nicole , jenny , ming yang , jun jie ,jeremy ,jun wei , jason , wenyuan , and yvonne de dear - yea..her house is simply flooded wid human beings..*lols*..was feeling sick..i slept..lie on jun wei shoulder..he move..and woke me up..thens nvm..lie on jun jie shoulder..he moce..adn woke me up again!..arghh`!..then went to da kitchen..*inside flooded wid smokers*..*lolz..*..then chit hcta awhile..then went out of da kitchen lorhs..then went to yvoone room and sleep..then also cant sleep well coz ppl lying beside me kept moving..the most awful things is that..jun wei and jaosn kept tickling me..>.<..haas..but nvm..i took my revenge..c0z i tickled jason..*wahahahs*...`evilish-..m0nths hab passed..wondering has his hart changed?..*wondering and thinking*..yesterdae was quite memorable wans..*gees*..dun wanna elaborate why..c0z its my secret!!..blahhhhhhhh......missing u..

2004-07-14T21:25:00.000+08:00

whao..had a hard time changing templates..keep on clicking on the *clear edit* button..so stupid of me..arghh``..okays..todae had the tampines idol..*whao*..so many gals shaking their butts..*o0ps*..*wakakas*..but its the fact..not making up any stories..was quite boring..afta sch wen to meet ken..then was suppose to head to yvonne house but i dunch wanna go..ended up at mac..seatting at dere till 3 plus i went home..and yea..my pap was seatting there watchin his tv..*gagas*..and yea..i am vvvvvvv sleepy now..i mean it..and yea..i clear my tots..i and him is impossible..why hang on to a thing which is useless wads rites..moreever he had ap towards me..and i truly hate it..coz it sucks alot..and yea he reeli does suck in my eyes..*grins*..do i sound fierce?nahh..i am not..and yea..i forget wad i wanna type..-.-!..ya..me and sumone getting along better then last time alot alot..hahas..and yea..he had lots of probs..hope cn help him solve bahs..then he and *ahems* will hab a good reltionship le..whaoo..wad happen to me..*gees*..i am NUTs..thts me..if i am not NUTS means sumthing worng wid me le la..*hahas*..okays..gonna stop here..i am sleep..i wanan turn in bed earlie..so tml got the *jing shen*..nites everyone..sweetest dreams tonites..C")..MaYehhhh...de ah yeehhhhh~..NUTssss

2004-07-12T18:52:00.000+08:00

wahahaha..just realise i am actually good at faking blur..*gees*..i am evil~..yea..i am alwasy evil la..anyway..todae lesson passed quite quick..*gees*..before the sch bell rung..it was raining heavily outside..*damn it*..well..walked out of the sch without any unmbrella..buts wid sum shelter frm my art file..well..my art work was drenched..*gees*..anyway the rain suckssss...and yea..as usual i am drenched like erms..i went for a bathe coming out frm the toilet but i dint wipe myself dry...??*wakakaks*alrytes..went to mac later on..sat there and waited for erms./.we also dunno..*gees*..then went to msg *ah kiang* asking him if he were free to pei me watch *mean gurls*..heh..waited for him..then he so pigu..so lazy..waiting for the so called *mac-soh* to cum here help him take order..meanwhile making alot of stupid noises..and yes..he's a freak..playing wid his hp viedeo..making fun of me agains..and yea..did i mention that jason cam to find me..*whaahahahs*.then afta tat went ot watch mean gurls..and yea..dint noe *ah kiang* noe how to scold people..haha..he wqas damn fierce..i was *shocked*..well coz seatting behind us were to Hai sing gals..those gals was idiot..legs so itchy..keep on kicking our seats..like nobody buisness...i was pissed off..went to complain to ken.,..and wel..he scolded them..*hahas*..but it dint make any diff la..they went on wid their kicking of charis..was reeli pissed off..and complain to ken..and thats it..ken turned back and stare at them..and when e show was over..whao ken reeli scolded them..haha..and those freak were giving us those innocent faces..asking *hey wad i did*..well u people kick our chairas..and thats it..it was ur wrong..hey and u both sucks la...*gees*..if i wreer to scold u..u can sae bye bye le la...haha...welll.. i am not that fierce la..dun pissed me off can liaos..well gonna go..(",)..*misses him*..*gees*...MaYeH

2004-07-11T21:47:00.000+08:00

sundae..wad a boring sundae..eat sleep eat sleep..*gees*..well at least i clean up my room rites...*hahas*..wel..hate.him.hate.him.hate.him.hate.him.hate.him.*I.SIMPLY.JUST.HATE.HIM!!!*..he sucks..he's so sacarstic..he's so fake..too fake..hate him!..dun wanna elaborate wad happen..just simply HATE HIM..coz he simply just sucks to the max..you sucks...i simply just hate u to the core..hate u hate u hate u hate u..

2004-07-10T19:52:00.000+08:00

weeeeeeee......here to blog agains..hehe..actually wanted to go outs..but in the end stay home sleep and sleep and sleepp..haha..was just bery tired la..finally ah..he called me..*hehes*..was too happy...*bleahs*..was not expecting any call from him or msges lorhs..then suddenly my phone go *ring..*ring..*ring..*=PpPpP...then of cuz ah..i ans his call..and he asked me to help him burn disk..*h very pigu rite*...hehehehehe..i know u will b reading this so must write more negative points about u..*heheheheh*..u pig la..reeli break wid my stead le..u dun believe..me reeli SINGLE le la..me ish waiting for u..*heheheh*..bleahs..okays la..ends here...continue next time..*bie..biee..*..C",)..ai.ni.ai.ni..*muacks*..hehehehe...i am CRAZY

2004-07-09T16:34:00.000+08:00

actually was kinda moody todae..was reeli upset over things i shuldnt upset about..things reeli did changed for the worst..we were no longer the *frens* we used to be..was practically listening to *duan dian* de whole dae...frm bus-stop to sch..frm sch till i go home..everytime i ting dao this song..it reeli makes me think of him..the times we spent together..the times we chatted on the phone for hours..those days we SMS each other frm morning till nite..it was reeli always floating around my mind..last time i tried to forget my ex ..so tt at least i can hab a begining wid u..but i reeli couldnt do it in da past..it took time for me to forget sumone..and one dae i realise..u were the one i also want the one that i always yearn for..but now..it seems that u were gone..it make me feel that i'm so useless and was abandon in a far far away island where no one care and love me..everytime when u were around wid the groups of frens which i am in also..it seems tt i am invisble to u..i tot at least u would take the initiative to at least tok to me or wad..but those hopes where tarnished..it was reeeli saddening..i reeli duno wad to do..i oni noe i am a person who tends to regret then i start to cherish..as wenyuan sae i am so stupid..yaa..i am stupid..i am always stupid..* dang ni bu asi na ge ren de shi hou..na ge ren jiu mo mo de ai zhe ni..guan xin ni..dang ni zhi dao ni yi jing ai shang na ge ren de shi hou..na ge ren yi jin xiao shi le..zhai ye bu ai ni bu guan xin ni le..* yearn to b in ur arms to b loved by u once agains..mayb i'm thinking to much..mayb u hab fall for another gal..i wouldnt noe..i can frankly tell u now..reeli miss u lots..in appearence i mite not care about ur existence..but in my hart..i reeli do care..and i reeli hope that every nite b4 i slp i'll recieve a sms frm u..i noe u mite think i am selfish..but in fact i am not..i just wan to forget that person who hurt me the most..and start a brand new life of mine agains..now i msg u also nv reply..already one week..the gap is pulling u away frm me..i reeli wan to close da gap..but maybe i came too late..but i just noe..i reeli lurve u..*duan kai de gan qing xian wo bu yao zhou duan dian*..i noe i am not a purfect gal..but no matter wad..i hab feelings too..if u dun lub me anymore..tell me..i would rather we go back to the past and b frens..those reeli good frens..and lastly..even if i breka wid guan kai..he will still b in my hart..bcoz the wounds are too deep..he's become the history of mine..and u re the new begining of my history..i could hab hurt u alot in da past..or i mite hurt u in da future....i hoep u wun hate me..i dun wan to b wid u not bcoz i dun lub u..is bcoz i dun wanna hurt u..u knew there's sumone in my hart in da past..tt's why i didnt dare to touch my feelings for u..from da beginning..my feelings for u were always ther..its just that i dint dare to touch it..i'm afraid of being hurt again..and i'm all alone to heal my own wounds..but now its reeli different..i just wan u..and yes just U..but..hais..u are gone..gone to nowhere..agains..i'm all alone..=(..sads..

2004-07-08T21:35:00.000+08:00

yea..back to post sumthing..hais.,..was sadded for da past few daes..not much conatct wid him..in fact like no contact at all..msg him no reply..see him in skul like we dunno each other liddat..hais..wad is happening..=(..hais...sad sad...feel so lonely withou him..relaise i reeli cant do without him by my seide..=(..

2004-07-04T14:47:00.000+08:00

finally i am back to blog..was very sick the past few daes...*hais*..got high fever..which shot up to 39.3 degree..but still i refusse to visit the doctor..then got flu and sore throat..now fever ok le..bvut still got flu and the sore throat bcum cough..-.-!..hais..wasnt feeling better laa...cant write much onm wad happen bcoz..i was told not to by sumbody..-.-!..well..broke off wid lucas 2 dase ago?..my bro sae i got fever till my mind siao siao le?-.-!....but is the fact its not..made up my mind..reeli dun wish to go back to the past anymore..hais...hahas...dun wan write too much..lata ..*ahems*..and ya..my lil bro is also sick...he's reeli v sick..hais..mayb hab to admoit to hospital..so sad..hope he recover soon..so can play and fool round wid hinm agains..=|..=(

2004-06-26T09:46:00.000+08:00

+.+.+.MaYeH.LuBbY.LuCaS.+.+.+

2004-06-25T13:15:00.000+08:00

well..think 2 daes never blog liaos..so here to blog up something..*heh*..hmmm..nth reeli happen norhs..just feelin blue..everydae got blue*mon-sun*..*wakakaks*..joking larhs..i oni wil lthink of it when its at nite..hais..i also dunch noe why..anyway..things turn out liddat its all my fault la hah..cant blame him..just got myself to blame..*sads*..anyway..yesterdae made new spects..then lens is pink in colour..*wahahah*..my mum sae its nice..so just took that wan..but forget its a coloured lens.duno can wear to sch anot..hmm..and yea..its a frameless wan..*ehehhehhehe*..happi ya..after so many week without spects..heheheh..argh`!just damn blardy bored larhs!..just clean up the whole house..hahaha..why?just to vent my anger...*laugh out loudsssss*..thissi s the way to make me foregt everything...and yea..i am confirm one of a king *wierdo*..ahhahaah....ok la..blog till here..its just a lame blog anyway..if u read it..hah..ur problem..=X...heheheheh

2004-06-23T17:01:00.000+08:00

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2004-06-23T12:10:00.000+08:00

hais`!long time no blog..at least i made an effort to blog now rite?*lame*..hais..i now still his stead or not i also dunch noe..*ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh*.........hais..its the fact that nobody reeli understand me inside out..why!!!!!!!even if u dunch noe outside at least noe inside!hais..*sorry*...wasnt feeling any better these few daes..was reeli upset..upset over things around me..especially about lucas..i made an effort to tell him how i felt but he kept on saeing i am not trusting him enuff or wad so ever..but have u been making the effort to m,ake me realise how much i meant to u?or rather how much u treasure me..in fact there isnt a time when u reeli show me u cared for me..it reeli make me disapponited..i told myself to b happie..no matter wad happen or rather no matter how u treat me..at least i noe i treasure u alot..hais..i reeli dunch noe wad u wan..always wearing a mask..which makes me smile..i am reeli tired of faking a smile to people around me..i can bluff them but its reeli impossible for me to tell a lie to my hart..telling them - no i dunch lub u ..or rather nvmm..i must stay happie so as to let u noe i lub u-..its reeli hard..everytime i take off the mask..i think..think how u treated me..its reeli saddening..each time i took off my mask i cried..but did u realise that?everyone ask me to part from u..but did i?i told myself..i must trust u and gib u time to change..it had past 3 mths..did u change at all?i can tell u loudly and clearly that..you did not cahnge one bit at all!..why must u make my life miserable?cant u make me happy and make me feel that i am loved my someone isnt that grate..u wanna b loved..but u nv make the operson felt the loved..how u expect sumone to return it to u?for u ..frens are the top piorityin u..u wan me to understand i understand..but have u ever tot how would i felt?u are selfish..u oni thik how to enjoy wid ur frens..and after that uu will forget all about me..no matter how bz u are..if u reeli crae about me..u would at least call me..or send me a message..izzit reeli that hard for u to take up 10 mins of ur time to chat wid me?will u die afta tt?i dun noe how ur brains actually works..wad uwan me to do to make u happi?noe even i msg u wuldnt even bother to reply..its been8 mths..8 mths isnt a short period of time its long..hais..i am reeli upset..reeli reeli reeli upset..

2004-06-21T13:51:00.000+08:00

hais`!..i am sad...yes i am!!..argh`!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!..two daes no contact..hais..how am i suppose to carry on wid life?it reeli makes me wonders...thinking too much?well..i just send a break off msg to him yesterdae..or rather at aorund 11.40pm..he din even bother to reply me..*feel like killing him*..well...i can sae i dun bother much aboiut him adn this matter..buts..actually i do care alots..wad uwan frm me?u expect me to treat u good when u trest me this way?*fat hope*..i have been wearing a mask..a happy mask..making ppl think that i am happy person instead of a person full of sorrows..i took off the mask..and i saw myself crying..i am reeli tired..reeli reeli v tired..now issit reeli the end orlread?u kept onm saeing u nv treat me bad..i nv sae u treat me bad..its just that i am reeli v disappointed..the way u treat me..i gave u my hart thinking that u will pamper it shower it wid ur care and lub..instead u shattered it into picese..trying ways and measn to mend back the shattered pieces..but it couldnt it found itself lost within it..reeli wondering..how much u treasure it and much u crae for it..how much it meant to u..

2004-06-19T18:11:00.000+08:00

yeaps..here i am to blog agains..well..yesterdae went to watch *around da world in 80 daes*..quite a farnie show..but it was an interesting one too..*laughs outs louds*...hmmms...hais..one dae nv contact my stead le..dunno wad happen also..i dun need anyne to understand me i oni wan him to understand me and know how i feel..but he doesnt..i still remember he said..* i think no contact no see each other nvm wan..as long as there is love can already*..hais..wad the hack..argh`!..anyway..cant be bothered wid these stuff liaos..so bored..yea i am dam,n farking bored adn confuse..alrtyes..

2004-06-17T10:46:00.000+08:00

`yeahie*i'm backs to post sumthing agains!*...okies...kinda lots of things to write todae..hmm..2 daes ago..there's was a little argument wid my hubby..alrtyes..although its kinda lame reason..but i reeli wanted to noe how much he lub me..alrytes..it all started liddat..while reaching home..my bro called me..and asked me to go bedok inter and wait fer him..-.-!..alrytes..then i decide to buy chocolate//so i went ot the neares minmart and bought a bar of fruit and nut bar..then went near my blk there de stone chairs and sat down and starting nibbling my chocolate..then it left 3 pieces..and my hubby..went to break it into p[ieces...and its was like..*eeeiks*..so disgusting..then he said..u dun eat u must.............kiss me..then i stare at him blankly..-.-!....then he sae ok la..then jiu.............then he gib those kidna action of *breaK*..but b4 he could sae anything..i said..u dare to sae i will do it without fail!..then he stil lgib me the same action..then i told him..fine` since this is wad u wan...i'll go..i took my choco and my drink and threw it into the dustbin and walk away alone..to the bus-stop..tot it was goin to b the worst nightmasre in the ;late afternoon..it was reeli horrible okies..*hais*..luckily he got brains??=X..he went up to me wanting to held my hands..but of cuz...i pushed him away..*`arghh*..then i tell him dun touch me..u sae wanna break rite..fine!..i made my way to the bus stop..and sat down on the chair waiting fer my bus to cum..while then my bro called me told me to go home bcoz my mum was too tired and didnt wan to pei him go make his new spects..alrytes so i todl him..i goin home..bye./.and just went home..of cuz i knew he would follow me..so i took the lift the 3rd floor and walked home through the car park..and thorughout the journey..he always trying to hold my hands..but i shoved it away..cant balme i was reeli damn furious about it..it all settled down while i was at the 14th floor..*coz my neighbour kpo ma..so must alight at 14th floor the walk up by stairs..*while on the srtaircase..he pulled me..he reeli gave me a vvv tite hug..i was shocked..and of cuz..i hug him reeli tite too..hoping it isnt the last hug he would gib me..and before i went off i went to him and hugged him real tite before i go..although i didnt bear to go..nbut i reeli hab to..*muacks*..reeli lub him lots..i was so afraid that one dae i might lose him...so i treated him v cold..i wanted him to treasure me more then i do..i noe its selfinshfor me to do that..but i reeli hope that we can last for enternity..*bleahs*..then yesterdae..went to watch *the best bet*...hahas..so nice the show..v farnie le..always luffing thorughout..hahas..then sumthing idiotic happen okies..went to long john as my baobei wan t osmoke..so sat outside cineleisure de long john..then yvoinne ask me help her buy drinks..so i went in..thorugh the auto door..then its was wierd..while i was coming out..the damn door just wouldnt open..*it was reeli embarassing okie!*...then i went all the way back and came out..then one bunch of guys seatting oopp us was luffing..`arghh!..nvmm..arghh`!!!!!!!!...'=|..okies la...i write kinda long already..

2004-06-14T13:38:00.000+08:00

okies`!..t0dae ishx erms?mondaes..*wahahs* lameee*..okies..quite longs neber bloggs liaos..delayed by my natural laziness...hehes..okies..erms..yea..fri me stead came my hosue..then saturdae nites chatted on da fone wid jason til around 3 am in da moring..then during the chats..*woots*..he told me eberything nehs..>.<..argh`!..0opS..*wahahas*..the eberything i shall not elaborate wads thats coz its for me to noe and fer ya to find outs okies..*heheh*..then yesterdae*sundae*..went to my grandma hosue..*wahahs*..my aunty who is staying there wid his husband and daughter..ish totally out of her mind..she so crazy de...one monet can b v gentle another moment scold her daughter like siao like tt..*arbish`!*..she no patinece de leis..she oni noe hwo to use violent nias...hahas...anyway yesterdae was shocked my stead msg me?*wahahs*..was defintely hapi lorhs..hehes..thens sat bus 67 frm bedok all the way to cck coz my granny stae there marhs..seat till pi gu kai hua ler...*sobs*..then my marmie..so blur de nehs..she sae go to my granny house is that path then i sae nonon is this path..then she dun believ she walk walk..then cant find*lolz*..then she sae..*eh ..haha*...*pengs de leis*..hmms..then next sat i think goin watch harry potter le..my aunty wanna bring us go watch at lido at orchard..*wahahas*..and yea not forgetting..* I am a lu chi *..hehes..i reeli dunch noe i got feelings fer him anot..thinking throughout the dae yesterdae..on the bus journey..the way backs home...*hais*..anyway..cant b bothered wid it liaos./.as long as i am wid my dear dear..no onme can tear us apart...* maucks*....LuBbb`!him lotsa..*muacks *muacks*muacks..no matter how he treat me..i will contiue to luubb him..eva and eva..coz he reeli mean alot to me..* lubb u forever*..{ wo.ai.ni ]..`MaYeh.LuBbY.GuaNkAi...(,")",)

2004-06-12T15:53:00.000+08:00

heh..was too laz yto blog yesterdae,,,*awww*...okies..yesterdae my stead came my hosue..for a short while oni coz i was suppose to fecth my lil brother frm his sch..*boring*..well..and peeps..nth much happen okeis..just help him out wid his MP3 player oni..dunch think too much okies..*muahahahs*..i am innocent..lolz..then after that my mum came home..she bought nasi lemak..add ingredient till 3 bucks..but i cant finish...>.<...*wakaks`*..but actually todae was suppose to go out wid my god bro der..but he cant make it so make it next week lorhs..lolz..okies..nth muchie happen lorhs..just like that like this norhs..*weeeee*...anyway..todae ish a broing dae..lata haf to accompany my marmie to tampines mall go look for her high heel shoes..*boring*..went there dunno how many times this week liaos....zzzzzzzzzzz*snores outs louds*..lolz..okies..nth le..ending here ler..and yea..jason made some confession?told me eberything?or did i remember wrongly?nvm..i just have a brain wic often forget this...have to get use to it yea?*weee*...(".)..but i am stil as conuse as beofre..reeli thinking i reeli lubby my stead ? or izzit other way round?*arrgh`!*

2004-06-10T12:36:00.000+08:00

alrytes..todae is thursdae..its defintely gona b a boring cum dull one...*zZzZzZz*......yesterdae sms wid my stead..told him how i felt yea?i told him i couldnt felt his love and concewrn at all..*all gals want to feel love frm guys?am i rites to sa tts*?..okies..then he replied.. he said i change alot..oh yea?did i reeli change much after that date...its reeli inbelivable..how much we contact eberydae and how often did we see each other...*hey!do u realise that we are startng to drift apart*?.reeli lost..i durno wad to do..i duno wad happen in ur everydae life..wad happy moments u had..wad thrilling moments u had wad sad moments u had..*i hab feelings too okies*..i'm not as cold-blooded as u..u said i ws angry so u cant ask me out..*okies..fine!its my fault!*...then i told him i am goin out wid m god brotml and he asked..alone?uboth oni?*hey his my god-bro okies!*..and i had no dates no appointment on that dae...cant i go out wid him...u wan me to tell u eberything i dun mind...but plz..hab some common sense..*arghh`!*..well..for u u think eberything is moi fault..okies..it fine wid me..hereby i sae a sorry! to u..happie?glAD?or sad?arghhhh```....my dar dar (von) ask me to choose the guy which can gib me happiness..hais//the person who can gib me happiness is jason..but the one i lub is lucas..mayb shuld try to change hart?*although ut may b hard*..argh``!!...lub life is currently ruin by MYSELF...*am i startin to hate myself?*...arghh```!!...*helps*..i reeli need hep badly..anyone can "kai dao" me?eberyone seems to ask me to choose jason..hey..i can..but in the end i will still hurt him..i rather hurt myself then hurt him..*coz he's innocent*..argh`````!!!!!*fustrated!...isnt it true that love sux to the v end?arghhhhhh````!!!!

2004-06-08T16:42:00.000+08:00

wel..another boring dae..hais..durn owads the hell is goin on..- the world is round but its turing upside down? -...my quote...ehh...my gan kor [ alan ] ask me sort things out wid him..hais..how?if i were to start i bet there be a never ending cold-war.. [ dunch u think so yea ? ]..well..well...well...jus now my gan mei mei sae...[ jason sae lei..he lub u beryt bery bery much..he will wait till u agree... ]..oh my god..agree to wads??wad hab i done agains?to got into tjhis kinda mes...argh!`..wel..then my gan korkor [ edison ]..de fren [ javier ]..cum xian me..oh my god!..arghh..the world is reeli turing upside dpwn yea?..hais..me and my stead...goin over le?or its still a smooth sailing..we reeli didnt contact much..he dun even show care and lub towards me..everything seems so fake in thois world..hais...`..reeli sads...

ai yi ge ren hen bu jian dan..- before u love someone make sure u noe hwo to take care of urself..-...

(".)MaYeH

2004-06-06T14:33:00.000+08:00

*WEeEee*..bEry long neber blog le..*wakakaks*..well..had BBQ last thursdae..a very fun cum boring one..had a tiff wid my mum..and i cried..yes i cried!..alrytes...my god bro came to find me at around 8 plus i guess...i was shocked..was lying on the ground practically was not exp[ecting any messages frm anyone..coz jason was there marhs...*okies*..then he msg me..* girl ah where ur pit ah*..i stunned...lolz!..thens in the afternoon..went near the sea and took a storll lors..hahas..bery fun wors...lolz..hmmss...then ask jason help mui buy lollipo ..*wakakas*..- aligatok -...hMmmss.ate a lemon flavour wan..lolz...hmmsss...then didnt contact much wid my stead nowadaes..he told me he would change fer the sake of me..will he?should i beleive him?i noe in a relationship there shuld b trust..buit i dun noe why i hab no trust in him..i wa n to trsut him..but in the end..i still heard alot of rumours...i np e rumours cannot b believe..but...it sound to good to b a fake wan..*lost*..i wan to feel his love towards me..but why cant i feel it..i feel so insercure when i am wid him..*hais*..god..tell me wad to do..*teach me how*..i reeli wanna hab a end to this sorrows..can i?hais....but i reeli lub u lots..i am reeli unwilling to let u go..*muacks*..i lub u lots...

2004-06-02T02:42:00.000+08:00

todae went to watch shrek 2 wid my hubby..hais..at first still ok ok de..but afta thats..hais..bcoz of a sentence i v du lan wid himm...hais..my fault agains?hais..okays lor..my fault..i already msg u liaos..why still dun wanna reply!!whyyyy!!!hais..sorry larhs..didnt mean it de,.reeli cant stand tthat sentence le lor..then i react this way de..hais..dun wish to lose u again!!..hais..sads..*off*..lub u always..*muacks*..=(..MaYEh

2004-05-31T22:56:00.000+08:00

*wEeEeE*..its..holidae time!!hehehehe..wid him one week le..tend to feel more lub frm him then the past..*pray hard*..hope we'll never leave each other..hehehes...alrytes..cutting all craps...jux got a new haircut todae..ppl sae it look cute?do i ?wth..so ugly..they sae cute..wakakaks..but not reeli that bad larhs..then yvonne bleach her hair..wootss...love nicole hairstyle and colour to the max!very the stylo sehh..lolz..ummmsss...then went walk walk then i go home le..*wakakaks*...yeahie!tomolo can see him le~~!!!*weeee..lub him vv much wors..hehes..bleahs....anyway..theres class bbq this thursdaeZ!!*weeeeeeeeeeeeee*............looking forward to that dae..hiak hiak hiak..dear..i lub u lots..*muacks*..lub ya always okays...- 21.05.04 - ...hehehehe...(".)...and ya..my old sickness is bad..bieng retarded and crazy..wakkakas...cya..

2004-05-27T18:12:00.000+08:00

*weEeE* bery long neber blog sumthing up ler wors..hehes..dealyed by laziness..hahas..jux gotta noe a guy frm my gan kor?lolz..he's a interesting guy!hahas...but wadeva..my dear dear still da best~..*winks*..ummmz..patch wid him on thursdae nite le..the first person to noe it was jason wors..coz was toking on the fone wid him marhs..but i knew he was sad...but he jux kept it to himself when at last he said.." of course i'll b sad..i'm seeing the gal whom i love the most loving another guy "..i was shocked..toally awfully shocked..but of course i was touched by wad he had said to me larhs..- i'm not cold-blodded (".) -..then chatted on the fone wid jason until think 1 am liddat..then put down the fone awhile call guankai (my stead)..then chatted on the fone wid him till 3 am..-.-!..obviously i was late for school the very next dae..but nvm..i'm happi!!!..hehes..reeli mish gk lots..(".)..it's been 3 mths afta all we are back together agains..its all fated?i durno..i jux noe i cant lose him anymore..if i reeli let go of him..i will b regretting all over again..we patch got 1 week ler..jux saw him on erm..tuesdae..then that dae nv wear pe attire oni..kena - yello form " then got dentention..-.-!..lame ass..fathul sux lor..lolz...wahahaha..then todae went discovery centre..hab alot of fun exploring the building wid nicole , yvonne , wenjie and ken..lolz..was always luffing!!it was memorable..lolz..then when to the omni thearther..( wadeva )..then inisde wenjie seat beside me..another side was yvonne..then was damn blardy cold..then nvm..i went to lie down..on my MP3 and sleep..haas..coz very boring..then watch till giddy ler..hahas..then when the show goin to end ler..i ask wenjie..aie u not cold arhs?then he sae no..then he held out his hand..ask me grab..hahas..then i grab lors..hahas...wadeva la hah..lolz..gonna end here le..(".)

2004-05-19T21:17:00.000+08:00

dunno why..can oni publish half when i type so many..whhaaa...so unfair!!!arghh..means half of it iss gone!!omgz..nvm..todae another new daes norhs..nth speciall..but love todae to the core..slacking throughout the daee!!well...during history period..chit chat wid mrs cheng..then tok tok suddenly tok about barberque pit..hahas..farnie..then we ask teacher..wan go pit anot..then she sae..uhs?go pinic??lolz..then we sae no la..is barberque pit..not picnic..lolz..then before history was biology..sians..1st period get back exams ...fail~!!!!fail by 3 marks oni!!arghhh..then was maths..finally...5 mths once our form teacher wasnt present in sch!!*cheerios*..then during recess sat beside ken..coz he wanna listen to " bao feng yu " his fav??always listening de..cant stand him...>.
ai de fang xiang zhao bu dao..wo zhai ni xin li hai zhi duo shao..wo de yan lei bu zhong yao,zhi yao ni ji de hui lai jiu hao..
by S.H.E - zhao bu dao -

2004-05-18T13:26:00.000+08:00

well..haben been blogging for weeks..computer was down..and was exams peridos..loads of things happen during these few weeks..alot alot..hais..well..firstly..saw lucas [ guan kai ] on 8 may..was actually goin up the escalator wid my bro when i jux mention his name to my bro and he appeared jux right in front of me..[ -.- ]..i was shocked..but was stil lthinking if it was him..as he changed his hairstyle uhs..when over and greet him..i walked away..but unfortunately i didnt brought out my fone..so nv reply his msges..weell...was in da mist of forgetting huim..but why does he has to appear right in front of me agains..[ i am tired..i am tired of waiting..i am tired of ur reasons..i am reeli tired..all i wan from u is a yes or a no..issit reaaly very hard to gib me? i noe u like yueqin..i noe it..but why wounldnt u jux admit..i am miserable kaes..the person whois miserable is me not u ..i wanted to gib up..but u tell me to gib u more time..i did..but wad i got in reutrn? nothing at all..hais..i dunno wad u wan..i tok on fone wid my frens..u sae i like them dun like u anymore..wad kinda theory u got..i am tired...really i am..i noe u likee her..admit can~>.

2004-04-30T16:39:00.000+08:00

well..another dae..todaes ish exam..got chi ma..so brought dictionary to sch..then when was about to start doin the paper..i flip open my dictionary and realise that the format of wrtting a letter was in my dictionary..and i checked the Q..and they are identical!..*wahaha*.but oni copy the format and the ending part..hahas..then slept..until the teacher bang onto my table..and woke me up from my dreamland~!!!!but nvm..forgive and forget uhs..heh heh heh..then was recess..muahah..then went to check my results for the CA..woh000...i passed all my sibjects!!..all 60 plus except for 2 sub i think..heh heh heh...plain happi!!heh heh heh...then after while walking out of sch..saw him and her..yeah..walking together out of da sch?lols..compatible uhs..=)..and then went to CS to buy sumthing then go home le..then walk through TM that tyme saw ken and sum other gals..then he came over to tok to us..then liddat the ngo home le lorhs..
then yesterdae dunno which bytch or bastard go sae i fooled p.c feelings and i said that he was flirt..and said i was a flirt..hey u trying to b unreasonable or wad..u are jux totally mentally retarded! brain damaged go hospital or woodbridge la..this blog is mine..and oni meant for ppl whose brain is not damaged and ppl who put their REAL NAMES on the TAGBOARD..not like u so coward..cum find me and tok to me face to face if u DARE..i DARE u..u arent me how would u noe how i feel?or are u jux pLain jealous?cum on la..face the reality lor..and if i reeli fooled his feeligns i will admit kaes..now is i NEVER and u sae me..did i offeneded u?if i do..dun even dream that i will sae sorry to u!if u dun like me tell me la..who wanna care about u!get lost..and reveal ur name if u dare..dun be a coward..u jux sux..

2004-04-29T17:50:00.000+08:00

alrtyes..todae ish thursdae..tml ish my exams..yeahh...paper 1..boring..the ntml got tution also..more sians man..hmmzz....todae lesson are boring uhs..but time passes bery fast as no bell..hahas..e geraldine cheng neber cum again..every thurs she wun cum to sch..-.-..but was doin my art and i was stuck..dunno wad to write..and i managed to dew that stupid word in the middle ..FINALLY!after 20 mins of sturgulling..muahahaha..thens lessons ended with maths..imagine..3 periods of maths...hahas..its torturing meeeeeee and my classmates.,..=X...then afta sch went to TM de mac to eat..hahas...finally we got the chance to seat together and eat...buss umthing went wrong..yvonne adn his stead was quarreling on the fone so badly that shecried..*uhs*..buts me not good at consolling ppl so didnt bother her much before i worsen everything...hahas..then suddenly that ah kiang called me..and asked me where i was. then waited him for around 20 mins?when i msg him..where u uhs..hab such long legs buts still walk so slow..then he replied me..my legs grew shorter...and my face went -_-!..hahas..then he came..then yvonne and nicole wents home..then that ah kiang ask me pei him go buy wax~i was like ..wadZ?!me carrying sooo many things adn u wan me to walk around?but ok lo..pei him lo..then later buy le go home le..hmmm...thens that sec 1 guy.see him le soo p.s coz he told me sumthing..>.<..hahas..shall not reveal much ehs..hahas..my privacy kaes..hahas..durno how to go *ahem* him sia..hahas...am i falling back to the very very past of mine..which is the very very first of mine?hais..i dunooo............i am lost!!dunno why i long for u to be by my side..buts i noe its impossible..dun wanna cherish false hopes..coz it hurts...='(..hais.... [ - MaYeh - ]

2004-04-27T15:02:00.000+08:00

yeaps..another boring TUESDAE...defintely very borings..wEeeee..wh0le dae he nv msg me wors!!...hehes...hardly my hp ish so quiet until my ex stead msg me..miracle uhs?he will msg me..the sky gonne drop..but he asked me a very farnie question which make me go "uhs?"..hMmmz....but nvm..he's a guy who share his hart wid lotsa gal..i am blind too love him coz love ish blind?!..nvm..todae walk to sch alone...sooo boring..lols..but nvm..will get use to it one FINE dae..actaully being single isnt that bad uhs?but seeing couple together make me so jealous uhs?!they hab got someone that loves them cre for them and share then woes and happiness together...buts wad have i got?i have got my self to care for and to share my woes and happiness by myself..no one to gib me hugs when i am cold..no one out dere to help me when i am sad..hais..[ omg..wad is happening to me? ]..mayb kinda sick of single life uhs?buts..exmas cuming...so studies cum first..*yea first*..

came home quite earlys..then nth to do..went to check my emails..where i came across a folder which i kept all da emails he used to send me everydae without fail...wel..gotta admit that he's a romantic guy uhs?noe how to xian gals..=X..hais..then was listening to this chi song.. [ dang ni gu dan ni hui xiang qi shui ]...then was also readin the e-mails he used to send me..read le feel like crying outs louds..but i didnt dare..i cannot cry over guys..its not worth it..coz it was me who reapeated my own very silly mistakes over and over agains!sometimes i will think...how can u love sumone when u dun even love urself?am i rtyes to sae thats?now i dunno wad to do..i am so stupid!g0sh oh my~hais..some sae who noes u will go back to the past wid *ahems*.,..yea..but not the guy who wrote me e-mails everydae..so dun anyhow think kaes..but..reeli like immpossible lorssss.....coz..he got his f*bi* uhs..so..bu ke neng de..if got chance i will de lor..but is no hab chance de...dun wanna b like an idiot..cherishing a false hope?haiya..duno la...gots chance thats good..but dun hab..means dun hab..so i can do nth..
- MaYeH -

2004-04-26T21:10:00.000+08:00

another dae..hahas..todae reach sch at 6.45...yesh..its bery early!hMmz..todae got my art de exam questions..wahh..bery tough nehs..buts still managed to squeeze sumthing out of my brain..hMmmZ...then after sch went to watch 50 first dates wid that pig..hahas..yeshie nehs..that pig~hahas..the show bery farnie sehh..luff till btH..but quite touching narhs..lols..then after that went home norhs..

hahas..whe ni went backs to sch to meet that pig that time..i saw him yeshie nehs..hims!hahas..he was jux seatin opp me oni..omgs..then tried to make myself not seeing him so kept on sms-ing ppl..ahahs..actaully jux replyin them larhs..hahas..then after that pig head cum lers..then go wid him norhs..but before thats was toking to few of my gan mei mei marhs..then hors..then keep saeing that guys name..OMG!buts then that pig head cum le..then he was like kindma make fun of me marhs..then was like wnrt to chase afta him norhs..then my gan mei mei sae he face turned blacks and was kinda jealoous??uhhhssss?i was stunned when she told me thats..lols..reeli..haiya..durno larhs..or i am starting to fall for the past again??uhhsss??i dunno...single single single..single life better?izzint it uhs?omg..wads the hells ish happenin to me uhs??duno larhs...
[ - * [ MaYeH ] * - ]

2004-04-25T20:01:00.000+08:00

another boring daes uhs...staying at home for the whole dae...doin wads..eat slp eat and slp..omGz..but gorts study my social studies test larhs..hehes..but jux study..why singapore wanted merger wid malaysia..well..remeber part of its..bcoz..hMmz..of trade..and wadeva larhs..coz forgets already..=X..hais..jux read his blog..yes his blog..wondering wad he told me in the past..i jux feel like telling him..i once loved u so much did u noe that?perharps u think i'm jux fooling around with you and ur feeligns.but i nv did that to u..i swear!you once told me u loved me..u loved me bery much..if u really do..would u reaaly jux forget me that easily?inm juz a few weeks..??does that mean that u reeli loved me alots?mayb jux for that period of time..perharps u jux didnt love me before..i once let u go bczoz i think that u are too godo fer me..u shouldnt hab be wid me..should jux b wid another ga..and during that period of time..i already sense that u are fond of elizabeth i jux kept my mouth shut..i pretend i knew nth..anyways i noe its my fault..who causes so much miseries to u..well..hopew that u and elizabeth can b together forever kaes..-*mayeh*

thens about that sec 1 guy lets call it GUY..i jux remebered..that fri he was msging me..i mean that guy was msging me..thens sae till my ex..then now me and my ex are like in good terms..then he msg sae...wahh ken bery good hors..then i replied..of cuz..or else last time i wouldnt hab like him..then he reply..ooo ic..hais..i asked him why haiss..then he said nths...-_-"..then i replied..uhs?jealous uhs?then he said..uhs?durnno...then nvm..coz i jknew that he was..jux that..hehs..thens..but reeli..got one nite was listen to da radio..thens..i was thinking..hMmz...wad if one dae i reeli end up wid the GUY how uhs?
reeli like got generation gaps lehs..he jux 13 years old and i'm 15..hais..durno larhs..though a little ..yes THAT LITTLE KAES..but..reeli immpossible larhs..sure he can find a better guy then me,..opps..not guy ish gurl..hehes..hais..now my hart got 3 guys...and its definitely not the sec 1 guys kaes.,.so dun b mistaken...i am jux too hua xin as in too flirt??dunno how to describe it uhs...but my my hart reeli got 3 guys..him he and guy..=X..hais..love?love hurts..*sobbing*.arghh... iwanna leave this world..i wanna leave this world..i wanna leave!!!but can i?mayb should stay single throughout my sec life again barhs?can enjoy me life wid frens..and my jie and meis and my kors??haiya...*single wan shui*~!!..hehes..i am jux menatlly retarted uhs?agree?i can luff for no reason and b sad for some reason..mood changes sumtime very seasily..buts..seldom change larhs..and seldom gets angry ..hehes..arghh..i am jux menatly retarted!!*buZZz 0fFf* -* MaYeH *-

2004-04-24T23:08:00.000+08:00

yeah..another dae..i still cant believed yesterdae i actuall slept for around 18 hours??omgs...lols..alrytes..todae woke uo at arounds 10aM..then went outs wid my marmie..and did sum shoppinjg..and of cuz i am so afraid to go shopping wid her bcoz she can stay at the particular spot of hours and hours..but luckily todae not liddat..went to tampines mall and went to shop for shoes uhs?durno why..everytime go shopping first item to aimed is shoes shoe shoes..lols..and she actually bought me one high heel shoes..lols..yea..i noe i am short..wadeva..thens went to bugis the temple to pray..thens wents to suntec city..and did some shopping dere..i went to THIS FASHION and bough one clothes..where mymum bough a flare skirt wid prints of roses...then went home..got home at aroound hmmsss...7 .30??thens..[ gos..forgot wad i wanna types..]nvm..continue tml kaes...my darn dad is nagging at me...*buzzIngofFf..* [ *- [ MaYeH ] -* ]

2004-04-23T21:54:00.000+08:00

t0dae..another broing dae...the period stared wid chinese..and it started off wid a test..and i realised that i nv study at alls..coz i din even noe that there was actually a test..and i left those notes that my teacher gave me under my desk..wanna cheat also cannot..buts after some help from the teacher managed to finsih half of it..and i went to dreamlands..but so sads..gorts no dreams..but i slept till i was like a dead person..my fren called me up when the period is over..but i didnt woke up until she shake my table like as if there was an earthquake..[ am i too kua zhang uhs?=X ]..then woke up wid that blurry look on my tootpid face..thens still bery tired norhs..
hehes..then todae nearly late for sch...jux in time step into sch the gate was shut..and was phew~..but the prob is my back my bery wet..as if i had jux came out frm the batheroom...thens todae gorts free 2 periods..then can slack abits...that abit...lols..then was recess..cant manage to eat finsih my that plate of rice..then luckily got ppl help me eat..lols..then after sch went to eat mac wid that pig..haaas..then went home wid that pigg....hahas..thens went home..online awhile..*b00m* went to slp..then knockout..cant wake up for tution..wakakas...so wads..i hate the tution teacher..i hate the ttution she gib..alwasy confusing me...i dun wan tutiioonn!!i wanna sleepp....and rest!!hahas...k alrhs.. [ MaYeh ]..hmms...am i falling for him agains??possible for the impossible??dirnno la..*l0osTt*

2004-04-22T20:05:00.000+08:00

lols...todae..nicole didnt come to sch..so kinda boring..LoLs..coz..no one to lame wid..lols..thens..after sch went to watch movie...- look into the mirror -..watched wid that stupid pig head..so damn noisy..hahas..but better then quiets..quite scary lo..bu ran i wun always down there..errrr errr and errr and EEeEeee ler...hahas..then after thats went home le norhs..t00k the same bus wid ken too..lols..that pig head..kee pon saeing da tou da tou..lols...mayb he like the da tou huhs?lols..wierd..he's lame..!!and first time in history i get along so well wid my ex!1..hahas..unbeliveable norhs...hahas..alrytes..todae de stpry beli short??lols..wad to do..nth reeli happen todae marhs...hahas....[- wo ai ni ni bu zhi dao ...ni ben dan ni ban dan ni ben dan... ] wahahas...lame enuff??=X

2004-04-21T16:30:00.000+08:00

whaooo...so long never update mui blog lerhs..then gorts sooo many things happening around me nehs..hais..long story narhs..he like me..yes he told me he likes me..and he's oni sec 1 and i am sec 3..i was kinda shocked..[ 0h mY g0ds ]..hais..then this few daes..my ex will like suddenly sms me..kinda shocked..and he even add me testi..frankly speaking my feelings for him arent dead yets..for months..though sometimes i reeli hate him..but the hate for him doesnt seems to stay..it's gones within a few daes..i dunch noe whys..mayb i can reeli forgive and forget abotu wad he did to mui in da past..and hearing sumthing bad about him..?or in da first place..shouldnt hab started falling for him..should hab stop myself..why things must turn outss liddat..she hurts u but u hurt me..did u ever care for my feelings?hais..all u noe..are frens and frens and frens and frens and FRENS..i gib u de freedom u wanted..but u nv showed me the love..hais..oh yea..not forgetting about that sec 1 guy..[ trying hard not to mention names ]..as i said..my papa went overseas last week thursdae..then gotta go sch muiself..then the sec 1 guy said he ish willing to pei me go sch till mui papa cums backs to singapore..then at that point of tyme..i still durnno he like me..[ although i sense it larhs..not being bHb kaes ]..thens..yesterdae meet him i was late norhs..then todae his turn to b late..later then ver then was late for sch uhs..buts nvm..forgive and forgets...thats mui motto..and i alwasy sae this motto to the sec 1 guy..and he actually learn from mui..forgive and forget..lols..thens..yesterdae mui run 2.4 then feel like vomitting thens gorts bad bad de headaches..then i jux remebered its tjhat sec 1 guy de recess time marhs..the nsms him ask him help m,ui buy water norhs..then after thats..those iditos in my klass started saying nosenses...then now mati..worst...wan hua ask me..u like him uhs?i reeli got no comments..for me he's jux like a bro whois reeli concern about me..thats all..or mayb..aiya..durnos larhs..although he left a good impression on me larhs..but around him all gals de...[ not being jealous ..dun misunderstood kaes ]..its was when i chatted wid him on da fone few daes backs...[ should b on sundae if no worng..and dun misunderstood..he is the one who actaully asked me to called him not me calling him by muiself kaes...]then tok on da fone for hours and hours..majiam like i noe him long long tyme ago..and we hab gorts lots of things to tok about wid each other..mostly gossips ehh??lols..then put down da fone at around 12 i think..[ u noe..i got a pig brain..tends to forget everything easily..things that are nto important shall not b remebered..=D ]..thens as he requaested for a morning call then i gib him a morning call norhs..suprisingly he woke up earlier then mui [ -_-||| ]...tHen went to bathe then meet him le norhs..but as usual i was late larhs..[ hehes ]..hais..so sads..now whole body aching like as if it was gonna break into pieces now..[ g0d save me!! ]..i cant even laugh hard..if not my stomach muscles do reaali hurt alot alot alot and alot!..then walk also cannot walk fast..if not reeli bery bery bery bery the pains..and i jux realise the dae before i ran 2.4 i actually ate nothing the dae b4..except for drink 2 packets or chrysanthemum tea and a bowl of rice..thast why i felt like vomiting and having a bad headache..[ sighs ]..but on the run..i actually took short cuts 3 times...[ hehes..shHh..secret hors ..] ..hais..wads love? [ - love means devotion crae and happiness.. ] wads true love then?[ i hab no and\s to that q..]can anyone ans me thats??who i actually lub?i jux noe that..i cant forget him..i reeli cant..i tried but it jux dun seems to fade away..whys..i reeli dun wanna live in miseries..i rather die then live in this ridiculous world..its hurting everyone in every part of the world..i used to think that love was nth..till the dae i was wid u ...i realise wads love..and how much it hurts for me to lose u but not having u backs by mui side..sometimes i will think..if i reeli stead wid the sec 1 guy..wad will happen..[ jux wondering kaes..dun misunderstood..]..and lstly i am not a FLIRT if u think i am one..i swear i am not now..although i admit last time i use to b..now i am not..i reeli wish to lead a simple life..to be the one i love and the one who reeli loved me..a happy life and a carefree and worry-free life..i was hurts 3 times..i dun wanna get hurt again..sumtimes i break off wid a guyy bcoz i am scarced of being hurt..and shall dumped them off first b4 i get myself hurt again..but i relaise i was wrong..reeli regrets...regrets for losing u but never regret for noeing u and loving u..nv will i ..and u will alwasy stand a place in mui hart..[ i.reeli.lub.u.lots.but.why.u.jux.dun.seems.to.understand.? ]hai shi wo men zhen de shi you yuan wu fen ?hais..*shatered hopes*shattered dreams*shattered hart*..[我会永远爱你...一直到你不爱我' ]...i promise i will..hais..mayb u already dun lub me?? i durnch noe..[ -*- [ MaYeH ] -*- ]...

"kNoWÌnG hË'll nËvËr bË yØuRs aGaÌN, tHoÛgH LoVe's tHerË buT sØ ÌS PaÌN. PpL sÂyS tHaT tÌmE wÌLL hÊaLs, bÛt tÌmË cÂn'T cØnTrÓL hØw Û FeËL. YeS, tHÌs sØnG uSed tØ b a LØvE tHeMe, bÛt LÌsteNÌNÌnG tÓ ÌT aLoNe ÌSn'T hÂpPy aS ÌT sËem. bËaR ÌN mÌnd, tHe hÂrDeR yØu tRy fØrGeTtÌNg, wÌLL meÂn thË mØrÊ Û wÌLL bË mÌSSÌNg.... sØ lËt tHe "LoVe" & "MÌSs" gØ Ón, sØmËdÂy ÌT'll uNcØncÌoÛsLy bË gØnË, pRobÂbLy ÌT's gØnÂ tÂkÊ qÛÌtÊ LØnG, buT 1 Day..... ThE lØvË tHeMe wØuLd jÛZ bË a nØrmÂL sØnG..."

[tHe.LiFe.0f.a.t0rN.BuBB|e.tRyiNg.t0.sTaY.aFl0at ]..='(

2004-04-12T20:31:00.000+08:00

wahh..jux realised i bery long nv update my blog le ehh??this few daes mayb not my daeS?fell sick since saturdae..havin sore throat..aRghHh...voice..[ temporaily break down..=X ]..hais..until now haben ok nehs... [ pathertic me =P ]..alrytes..sat was cheryl lim de burfdae..then went to her party norhs..wahh..but bery de hots..then tok da whole at her house??lols..then got to noe the sec1 de jason better barhs..we both tok and tok and tok and tok non stop ehh..??lols..hMmz..a rather caring frenly and good guy barhs..lols...wells...and todae went backs to pri sch..coz teacher de burfdae marhs..then so sads...buy cake le..then me yibing xuan fan wei quang jason and liyun...seat canteen eat le..then tok and tok and tok non-stop..lols..but soon i went home le lorhs..alrytes then nth happen..and oh yeah..todae nearly late fer sch again lers..hehehe....then go home..*b00m* immedately fell asleep lers..hhas...too tire le larhs..aiyos...=P..buzzing off now..[ - * - [ MaYeH - ] - * - ]

2004-04-08T17:52:00.000+08:00

have been thiking wad my god-bro told me yea...he told me..u actually gave up ur love bcoz of sumone..and that sumone who isnt reeli worth ur love at all..reeli thinking about it..but i jux told him.. i am always loving sumone who dun love me but instead not loving sumone who derserve my love..but he told me..love is blind..w cannot do anything about it..is he reeli worth my love?or did i reeli reeli made da wrong decision again and again..i noe in his frends eyes..i'm jux a bytch who alwasy use some excuese to break wid guys..well..i am not!those so called excuses is true..try putting urself into my shoes..loving 2 person at 2 tyme is reeli impossible..so why not jux let go and let them search for their new love out dere again..being liddat am i still selfish?!hais..anway i am enjoying single life now..no longer hab to leave my frends alone..having my own free space..and my fone is more quiet then before..q\worries are much more lesser ..i hab more tyme for my frends and family..anyway...as ppl sae..love causes hated..yes i believe that coz i am in that position b4..one of my best fren actually fell in love wid my ex...and i told her about our relationship yea..we actaully had a cold war for 1 week...and if u sae i dun love him...i wun actually fell off wid my best fren over him kaez..i noe u guys think i am a bytch..i admit..during sec 1 and indeed i am..but things started to change after i break wid jason..and during the tyme i was wid g.k..i am reeli glad that i found someone who noe how to cheeer me up..but i am jux too stupid..always doin things that i arent suppose to do..but wad to do..if oni i can turn back time..i rather made no mistakes at all..sighx...i noe its all my fault./.it all started wid me..all my fault all my fault!!*devasted*and buzz off if u dun like me..dun tok behind my back.,.if u dare..tell it infront of me..try me![ -*- [ MaYeH ] -*- ]

2004-04-08T15:30:00.000+08:00

haisss...seeing his blog..made me feel so bad..all moi fault~!!or did i made the wrong decison again?by letting fo such a perfect guy...[ in a dilema.. ]...hais..this sat gonna attend a burfdae party ..its cheryl lim de birthdae..lols..boring la..hais..arGhHHHHhHhhhH!!!wadda hell is happening to me!!!hais..but still hope he will find a gal soon bahx...better then me...looks also..personalilty also..=)..and another reason is that i think he treat me too good liaoz..like to compatible or suitable bahx..hais..though feelings are still there..i dun dare to go touch it againx..scarced of being hurt and worrying and of coz quarrels...hais..[ - dang ni gu dan ni hui xiang qi shui - ]...---wo bu zhi dao...wo de xin tai luan...end here bahx..anything update later lor...[ - MaYeH - ]

2004-04-06T14:32:00.000+08:00

t0daE b0rinG~!!i was having that sleepy mood the whole day long...then headache ah~....durn0 why..head feelin down ehh?LoLss...t0dae g0rtz back 2 test..fail my maths pass my eng..LoLs..aNyway..now durn think muchie lerz..jux wanna lead a simple life..full of joys and laughters and enjoy my curry puff ehh??[ hahas ]..alRytez..durno why this few daes like addicted to curry puff!!hahas...mayb it jux taste sooo nice??or??durno..well well well..so fast vreak got 1 week le?am i rytez or jux having some probx calculating the daes?LoLs..nahx..jux boredddd...very very boredddd...yesterdae drew my art [ 3-D shapes.. ]...drew till my head wanna explode..gotta fill up the whole A3 size of drawing paper...and i actaully drew one in sch but jux realise it was so ugly that i re-do it again!!..but nvm..as long as i am satisfied wid my work..its fineee...heh heh..then sundae went outtie wid my cousin to TM..then we went to take pics and did some shopping...[ didnt noe her shopping spree was more horrible then me!! ]..she bought clips..pencil box...badges...wherelse i oni bought one t-shirt...[ wid sort of not look like pig also dun look like a hippo..LoLs..durno wads that also larhx..but its nice..its black in colour..hehe ]...so0 long bahxx...[ -*- [ MaYeh ] -*- ]

2004-04-05T15:18:00.000+08:00

weLLz...t0daE nEaRLy LaTe f0r sCho0L aGaInx..w0ke uPz aTz 6.55..tHen iN mY bRaIn oNi g0Rtz..[ oH mY g0Dz ]..caMez 0uTta t0iLetz aTz 7.04..tHen qUiCkLy gEt cHaNgEd iNt0 sCh UnIfOrM..tHeNz rEaCh sChoOl jUz iN tYmEz n0rHx..c0z g0rTz pApA fEtCh mE MaRhx...hEhE..aLrYtEz..hE aNd hIs sTeaD bReAk LeRz..g0d dAmn iT..i aM rEeLi ovErjOy..bUtz aLs0 n0 uSe dErz..i cAnNot g0 bAck t0 hIm..bE by hIs sIdE aNyMoRe..[ i tHiNk onLy LaRhx..h0pe iTz n0t tRuE!!! =') ]...hAiS..aNyWaY i jUzt rEaLiSe wAd i wAnA tYpEz eHh??NvM..n0w i ReaLize h0w paIn iTz is t0 L0se sum0ne u rEaLLy L0ve..aNd i LeT hIm oUuTaa mY aRmz n0t bCuz hE wAntEd t0..i eNdEd iTz..aNd i rEgReTtEd..HaIs....i n0e i wAs iN dE wr0ng..caNt u jUz gIb mE a cHance aNymore?? [ neng bu neng gou zhai ge wo ji hui hao hao de ai ni..wo hui zi xi de ling ting..ni dui wo shou de yi yan yi yu..wo hui xue zhe kong zhi pi qi bu rang ni shang xin..dui ni hao hao qu zhen xi..qing ni xiang xi wo de n hai shi ai ni...]...i reeli LovE u LoTs..HaIs..[ -*- [ Living in da world of regrets ] -*- ]...

2004-04-03T20:26:00.000+08:00

Hais...>.<..why am i always sighing??[ >.< ]..alrytes..broke off wid him on a very nice date.. [ 31.03.04 ]...frM.. [ 14.02.04 ]..tiLL that date lorhx..alRytex..t0daeee..sp0rtz daE..so0 damn bloddy hot..sweating through out..Lolx..wAs listenin to my discman fer almost the whole dae when suddenly a " water war " pop out..then water everywhere..LoLs..bUt luckily i am not wet..saw HIM todae..then he smile at me then i also smile at hime lorhx..LoLs..i am so foolish..i am always loving sumone who dun derserve my love..and i am not loving those who deserve my love...ish this fate??hais..anyway..wads love..and wheres the love?! [ -*- [ f0oLiShgUrLx ] -*- ]..

2004-03-31T20:40:00.000+08:00

t0daY b0rIngZzz...g0Rtz aSsEmBlY tHen tOk aabBb0Ut tHe dUnno oBeSe wAd tHiNg WaN..bOrInG dE yAo si~!!!bUt nVm...i'm still leaving in the world of regrets..someone who wish to b dead not..leaving this miserable world..hais..but can i..everydae hoping to go back to him..but it can oni b virtual but not in reality!itz..reeli the biggest mistake i hab ever made..the wrong decisions..hais..but wad can i do..tell me who can save me from all this sufferings?can anyone do that??HaIs..mayb itz retribution??or wadeva dunno how to spell...hais./..my fault my fault..hais...reeli wanna go back to the past~..anyone can turn back time?hais...sads...saddist always....hais...sobbing in mua hart every nite i think of u ..can anyone stop that?it hurts me lots..can anyone stop the hurting?hais...[ -*-[ LiViNg In dA w0rLd oF rEgReTs ]-*- ]*sObBinG aWaY*...n0b0dy uNdErStAnds me aT aLL!!!!!!

2004-03-30T21:03:00.000+08:00

Hais~! [ Life's a struggle ]...agree?Finally i made clear thoughts..the one i reeli love is [ Lets name it as GUY ]...ok..the one ireeli love is the GUY..haIs...reeli regret of letting him go..after i left him i realised that i cannot do without him..i reeli cant...and i have left [ lets name this guy ask HIM ]..now that i have left HIM..i think i dun live in guilty anymore..but rather i live in the world of darkness and regrets...reeli regretted alots..if i was given a chance..i reeli wanted to b back by the GUY side..not leaving him once or making him angry and sad over me...hais..but its reeli tOoo LateEe foOoor rEgrEtsssss....too late..chatted on msn with the GUY yesterdae..he told me he already got stead..i was like reeli lost..and i cried on the spot..i didnt noe where did the tears came frm..but i noe i can reeli feel the pain in my haert..itz jux that my hart have been smashed into pieces and its reeli hard to take and puzzle it back together...itz reeli vvvv hard..when i am with HIM...i have tried ways and means to forget him..and tried lovin HIM wid all moi hartz...but why cant i juz do it..when i was wid him..i felt like i was lost..wanted to jux walked away but i jux cant..what the hell is love !!! tell me!! love hurts everyone in da world!!hais...but wad can i do when i start to fall in love wid sumone i shouldnt hab..in the beginning it huts..when it ends it hurts..but its more worst..its ended wid tears..tears which are not b wasted on boys..tell me where is the love that everyone should hab in their hart!!Hais...reeli miss the memoris that i had wid the GUY..can i hab him back..can i go back to the past of me and him?can i turn back time?can i?can i? can i do that?!if i can and i hab the ability i will like to...go back to the past..made to mistakes and hab no regrets...i am reeli living in da world of regrets and darkness..nobody understands me..everyone think that i am happi..well if u dare open up my hart and see wad kinda gal i am...i am bytch!who plays around wid feelings?if u think so i am this kinda gal..jux buzz off me!i am not!!!!!!!!!i leave guys bcoz i hab my own personal reason too!jux like the way u leave ur ex-boyfreinds!!dun b stupid..u can sae others..wad about urtself..hab u think about it b4!ead kinda gal haf u been..hais....jux hope to be back by the GUY side..reeli hope that my dreams will come true...i swear i will wait for u till the dae the feelings for u hab fade..but i noe it wun fade so soon..coz i really lub u lots..i noe u regret too...if u and ur stead break *touch wood* hope u'll gib me a 2nd chance to b part of ur life again...i reeli hope that u will grant me mjux this small little wish..i will wait for u ! i promise..no matter how hard how sad h0w bad..u are still in my hart!![ -*-[ Living In The World Of Darkness And Regrets ]-*- ]....*sox*...sobbing in mua hart always..

2004-03-29T16:39:00.000+08:00

todae durno wad happen to me..kept thinking of someone whom i shouldnt hab...making p.c so upset about it..but i think he dunno about that bahx...todae he came my house...and tok awhile...then fell asleep..then nv tok liaoz..hais wad the hell is happening to me!!!!!hais...he got stead le..i also got le..durno why those memory keep appearing in my mind!!!tell me why..i reeli wanna noe why..who noes its the biggest mistake i have made in my life..

2004-03-28T20:49:00.000+08:00

hEh hEh..Jux cHanGe mY bLoG DeR sKiN..h0pe yA gUyS LiKe It baHx..hMMz..todae Jux Like yesterdAe n0rhx...stAy aT h0me taKe cAre Of mY LiTTlE tRoUbLeSoMe bRoThEr...hahas...But NvM..n0 mAtter WaD hE sTiLL mY bRo yEa?hMMz..Miss mY dEar aLoTx nEhx...aNywaY..LoVe u tIll tHe eNd..keke..*muacks*-y0ng.bU.fEn.Li-

2004-03-28T20:04:00.000+08:00

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2004-03-28T17:27:00.000+08:00

Morrie once told Mitch:" Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn’t. You take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted. A tension of opposites, like a pull on a rubber band. And most of us live somewhere in the middle."

MeaNinGfUl bAhx..

2004-03-26T22:30:00.000+08:00

hMMz....haben been blogging for daes le barhx..this few daes abit bz..my bro jux had his opt on tuesdae...then was like abit bad bahx?but stew hope he get well soon and cum homew and nag at me agin..[ i dun mind ]..hMMz..then this few daes got mini quarrels wid moi dear dear..but hoopeee everything gonna b okayx bahx...*pray hards*this few daes also bery tired..k larhx..end here coz lazy to type out liaoz..[ keke ]..continue next tyme ... [ live life to the fullest ]..

2004-03-22T22:05:00.000+08:00

2004-03-22T20:29:00.000+08:00

yesterdae nv blog coz forget to blog when i was online ehx?anway yesterdae was a tiring dae..got tution at 10.30 and i woke up at 10.15...then was nag by my mum..=|..but nv..itz all over liaoz..hahas..
okok time to write todae blogs..hMm..todae woke up at 620..went to bathe at 6.30 came out frm daaa toilet at 6.45..then went to get ready 7am liaoz..then went top call my pap wake up..then todae he drove the car VV slow..reach sch jux in time left a few mins niaz..tot i was gonna b late...but luckily nv late..or else history gonna repeat itself again...as when during sec 1 first dae of school oni i was late liaoz..lols...farnie ah farnie..hahas...but nvm..history is not gonna repeat itself againx ler...hahas..todae boring..no free period [ sads ]...studying throughout the dae..then got back my chinese common test..first time in history fail..[ 45/100 ]...another sad case..then todae after sch waited for moii dear then he pei me go home then go sumwhere slack then go home..then todae my bro admitted to hospital le..tomolo having the operation..ope everything gonna b ok bahx..=|..*pray hard*...and lastly...dear ah~study hard wors..MuAcks..miss ya loads..

2004-03-21T16:27:00.000+08:00

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2004-03-21T00:45:00.000+08:00

Ai sEh..t0dae finally over le...means its the last dae of me working at city plaza [ can sae bahhhh buaisss to that plpace le ]..hehes..very tiring..every hour got to keep check on the tokens and hab to count money...heng todae mei you that lao aunty there..or else wo de money young yuan dou count bu wan de...hahas..but todae i counted money and lost count of it then count all over and over againx..[ think i did that go 5 tymes bahx ]..hahas...then todae moii dear dear come visit me..i was eating my so called lunch and dinner bahx..then i was like..hUh..why this person so familiar der..then i realise tit was him..[ hahas [..farnie ah farnie..]then todae only me and that uncle work..then the uncle also like a chatterbox..keep talking none stop..and i made alot of mistake todae..think altoghether got 5 bahx..[ dissapointed in moiself!!! ]...then luckily he never scold me or else i sure die de lorx..=P..finally 9 plus ler..then can get ready to go home lers..then thik 11 reach home bahx..then bery tired..tml morning t\still got tution..[ can take my life =| ]...nut nvm its fate..hahas..anway dear ah~reeli surprise to see u there todae worx..ai si ni le...hehe...but reeli frm da bottom of moii hart..i love ya..~

2004-03-19T21:43:00.000+08:00

"When someone hurts us we should write it down in sand where winds of forgiveness can erase it away. But when someone does something good for us, we must engrave it in stone where no wind can ever erase it."

meaningful mahx?...:)

2004-03-19T20:21:00.000+08:00

t0dae m0ii d3ar d3ar w3nt w0rk wid me..then the uncle haben cum..so cant go into the arcade..then went to sat otuside and eat tao suan..then i ask him help me eat..he ask me to feed him..lols...so feed him norhx..he's my first guy i ever fed..[ farnie ah farnie ]..then uncle cum le..so tyme for work!![ counting money and token ]..my job..hahas..tiring ah tiring~..but nvm worth it..2 more daes sch re-open lerx...3 cheers man~..finally holidae ishx over!!then everydae can see moii dear dear lerx...[ hehe ]..then first dae of sch shiok ah shiok..4 periods of art...[ yeahie~! ]..tml gonna b a tiring dae for me lerx...work from 11 till 10..long hours ah long hours..then my bro tuesdae go operation lerx...[ hais ]..hope everything gonna b fin..entering a operation room is not as easy as u tot..the fear ish ther...i noe it bcoz i went in b4..its reeli bery scary..its cold inside out..and the lights..and i went into the operation room bcoz my ear stud was stuck inside my ear lope..thinking back the doctor told me..ifthey cant get the earing out of moi ear..they are gonna cut my ear lopes..luckily they managed to took out the earring..durin that time i was crying..reeli afraid that they will cut my ear lopes..but nvm..its all over..and hope that this incident will not happen again~..and lastly dear..i reeli miss u lots..remeber to tae good kares of urself kaez?*muacks*-woaini-

2004-03-18T21:57:00.000+08:00

t0dae..was surprise to see my dear at CP [ City Plaza ]..when he called outz moi name..i was like huhx?who called my name..and i turned round and look...its him!![ h3h3 ]..but oni get to pei him for awhile coz got lunchbreak..[ =') ]..then he went wid his frens to watch [ the eye 2 ]..then he told me sumthing farnie about his fren ya?[ LoLz ]..hMMmz..then work till six..then went home..got home at around 7 plus bahx..then todae my bro burfdae..then his frens were here..there were still 3 of them here...and they said..we wun go until we finish all the tibits..and there were still 5 packets of tiwsties..[ those big big wans ]..hahas..and both of them i eating..till tey were sweating..[ =\ ]..and there was this guy here...keep on making me to eat food ehx?[ later bcum xiao zhu zhu le ]...hahas..hais~...somehow i feel sads..i durno whyx..can anyone tell me whyz?*ireeliloveyoulotsdunleavemeidunwanautoleaveme-IloveYou-*

2004-03-17T22:37:00.000+08:00

Laughter -
A day without a smile is wasted. You
enjoy laughing and smiling and often find the
perfect joke or pun to brighten the day, even
if it is only your own. On your good days, your
humor is appreciated by your friends, but on
your bad days, they tend to avoid your caustic
wit. You can be more friendly than most, and
your gregariousness has at times embarrassed
your friends.
------------>meaningful mahx?found it at someone de bLog..so wanted to share it wid u guys ehx..*miss u lotx*m3 & y0u t0g3th3r f0r3v3r??-h0p3fuLLy-

2004-03-17T21:16:00.000+08:00

Yeahie~i'm free now..so i shall continue ehxx..hMMz..todae work..then got this malay gal..V rich..change 200bucks into tokens..even richer then my supervisor there..LoLx...oPPz [ itz da fact ]..t0dae he come find me le..finally get to see him and be wid him for 40 mins??[ farnie ah farnie ]..c0z w0rking ma..so cannot pei him for longss..[ hehe ]..but better then nth ah~then he pei me go home..bUt he keep..aRgh..[ making fun of me ]..then i act angry..oPPz..hahas..but nvm..[ hehe ]..boring..fotta work til lstaurdae..then sumore saturdae work from 11am till 10p,..tired tired tired...everydae count money till i blur liaox...but hope can improve my maths ehx?[ wahahaha ]..hope that sch will re-opne soon..[ in 4 days ]...hMMmz..holidae sux eh..dun ya agree?todae i also bery the blur...duno why..when the MRt reaches tampines..i was still standing there..[ LoLs ]..oni when moi dear dear ask me ..a..u still dun wanna get off the train eh..then i was still blur..then i realise we had already reached tampines..[ b|ur ah b|ur ]..hahas..anyway todae is the same..plain boring dae~!

2004-03-17T20:32:00.000+08:00

heres my new blog ehxx...sumthing wrong wid moii old de blog..hahas..anyway todae is a tiring dae~!!i''l contiune sumore lateer ehx?